when will i learn?

sometimes when I give people advice and wisdom
i find myself not hearing it
so why tell others if i'm not living it out?
perhaps that is extreme...
but sometimes for example i find myself telling someone to trust God
and then i myself am not trusting God in a certain area or situation
when words come out of my mouth, i need to start listening..
because if i am telling someone something, i should be living it too.

i worry and try to control things
that i can't control or change
or if i were to control, i'd screw them up
sometimes i need to remember to let go..
the tide is coming, the waves are changing
and i just have to ride it out, enjoy the ride
finding myself in the midst of something big
and just know...
no matter what there isn't a need to worry.

i almost went to the beach last night
but this last week i worked about 44 hours
and this week i'm putting in some hefty hours as well
so i was pretty tired.
i ended up falling asleep on the couch for about an hour
maybe tonight I will go to the beach..