I can't believe it.

I can't believe summer is almost over!
.. i always say that every year.
i soak in every bit of summer i can
but it never seems to be enough!
... classes start monday.
I need to get my job straighten out
among other things.. i havn't even started my list yet.
i already have a presentation !!
and "homework" i need to do for it
(i havn't even started yet.. ekkk)
I don't move into my apartment until saturday
sort of a nomad until then.

its been a challenging week & 1/2
certainly has had its ups and downs
moving is like death a friend told me this week
... that's how i feel.
i'm losing not only a home but memories.
my brothers and I are all grown up now
but thats where we spent most of our time together
where friends came over and hung out
where we laughed, cried, yelled and screamed
but we were a family.. those memories will still be with me.
i called it home for 13 years..
though i think i'm properly grieving it and letting it go
its still hard very hard.

I'm really not one to put down roots
or find myself settled in one place for the rest of my life
my dad told me the other day "I was a restless soul"
but with this move, my parents moving
its like a anchor i've always known as home
is now gone..
where is home?? what exactly do i call home?
it makes me long for home..

my seasons have changed.
and are continuing to change.
I am sooo thankful.
whats next?
i pray with anticipation..