I don't know what to think or even feel right now.
i'm scared.
ryan is in trouble.. he's been in the dark for so long
he needs to get out, he needs help.
our prayers have been that everything would fall apart.
.... everything seems to be falling apart.

my parents received a call tonight saying
"come get me" from ryan
and then got disconnected.
they couldn't get a hold of him
and finally his ex girlfriend called back
and said stop calling. (she might be drunk)
and basically wants him out...
screaming was going on in the background
she wouldn't let my dad talked to ryan
finally she did - he just said "please come get me"

i'm not sure what is going on
all i can do is pray and hope.
ryan's world is being torn beneath him
and he is at rock bottom.
where else can he turn?

my parents live two hours away
they are on their way but can't get there fast enough
i think a family friend is going to up there
i have no idea what kind of situation he will walk into
but hopefully he will be safe.

my heart is broken but hopeful.
Father, bring your protection, your love and your wisdom.

i love my brother
i miss him.
it would be really nice to have him back.