"The longer this waiting goes on, the deeper the ache.."
Romans 1:11

this was said by Paul in response to wanting to see his dear friends of faith
... and i can identify with his feelings.

so many things are stirring in my heart
everyday i discover
i'm seeing God in everything.
I am on a journey
sometimes its easy and sometimes its hard
but through it all i find myself becoming more dependent on God
and surrendering my will, my control - and offer my life to Him
that's all i want.. really.

"God is kind, but he's not soft. In kindness he takes us firmly by the hand and leads us into a radical life-change." Romans 2:4

I'm learning lessons.
and learning that through my lessons
others can learn too
I go through my difficulties and such
for very personal reasons..
i struggle, i learn, i grow
but when i look back
i am able to say to others...
"this is what i've learned.."
I am thankful for that.
God is using me in ways i didn't expect.

i feel overwhelming sense of peace
i have desires and hopes
but i know surrender is whats required
restore and redeem


"I pray to God—my life a prayer— and wait for what he'll say and do.
My life's on the line before God, my Lord,
waiting and watching till morning, waiting and watching till morning.
O Israel, wait and watch for God— with God's arrival comes love,
with God's arrival comes generous redemption. No doubt about it—he'll redeem Israel,
buy back Israel from captivity to sin."
Psalm 130:6-8